What made you stop being an addict?

I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

What disgusts you?

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.

I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

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I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.

I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.

I took a video of my serve (60 FPS) and it took 0.4 seconds from my racket to the service line. How fast would you say my serve was?

Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

Read that again ☝️

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

What does it mean if someone asks if it’s pink?

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

I did it in my administrator's office.

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I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

Have you ever answered your door in lingerie?

So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.

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Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.

Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

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Just keep trying

Am I totally free? I don't know 😕

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

What are some best sources of great porn?

I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.

This was February 2019.

Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.

What do you do when your family doesn’t care about you?

And I DID IT EVERYDAY

There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

But for me, I would say RUN away from it

A kid threw a stone at my car. I confronted his mom (who was nearby). She said, "You can't prove it was my son." How should I have reacted?

I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.

All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.

I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

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I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

And I can also talk to them now.

I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

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So I'm still hanging on this lie.

It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

What kind of book did you write after turning 55?

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.

RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.

But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

Now how do you quit your addiction?

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

Is masturbation and p*rn bad?